A Month of Thanks: Day 16

Psalm 30:1-12 "I will extol you, O Lord, for You have drawn me up and have not let my foes rejoice over me. O Lord my God, I cried to You for help, and You have healed me. O Lord, You have brought up my soul from Sheol; You restored me to life from among those who go down to the pit. Sing praises to the Lord, O you His saints, and give thanks to His holy name. For His anger is but for a moment, and His favor is for a lifetime. Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning. As for me, I said in my prosperity, “I shall never be moved.” By your favor, O Lord, You made my mountain stand strong;

You hid Your face; I was dismayed. To You, O Lord, I cry, and to the Lord I plead for mercy: “What profit is there in my death, if I go down to the pit? Will the dust praise You? Will it tell of Your faithfulness? Hear, O Lord, and be merciful to me! O Lord, be my helper!” You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; You have loosed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness, that my glory may sing Your praise and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever!"

1. I'm thankful for a husband who immensely loves his daughters. He makes each one of them feel special and loved. Today was Micaela's birthday date. I think she looked beautiful in her dress that God provided. She was so excited that Wayne got to drive her on her date. She told her sisters, "I'm the first one that Papa gets to drive." She was thrilled to have time alone with her dad.

2. I'm thankful for every day that God gives us with Wayne. The last few days have been hard. People on my GBM facebook page have reported loved ones entering hospice or passing away. Today I found out that a local friend who has been fighting brain cancer for over three years is now done. The treatments aren't working and they are making her super sick. I have been sick to my stomach all day thinking of her and her family. Even though God has given her peace about this and she knows where she is going, it is still heart breaking. It also once again stirs up fear in my heart about our future. I know that I shouldn't dwell on the negative stories or worry about the future, but hearing things like this just makes it so hard. It's not great to hear things like "A long-term survivor lives about three years." Once again, I'm laying my fears and future in God's lap. I know He is good, faithful, and that He has a sovereign plan. He has numbered each of our days, including Wayne's days. Surrender and trust...that is where I'm at again. I will continue to bring each person, including Jenn, before the throne of God until He decides to take them home. If you want me to add you or a loved one to my prayer list, let me know.

I also am thankful for all the people who wished me a happy birthday yesterday. Thank you for making me feel loved!! I thank God for another year of life. I'm praying that this year is another year of spiritual growth, dependence on God, and a year for God to use my life for His glory!